Me encanta la forma en que me amas

   Random realization of the day: I'm one of those super weird people who gets completely lost in worship music in the strangest places. I discovered this while I was washing dishes with my Ipod cranked up and totally forgot what I was even doing about halfway through the song. I had heard this particular song dozens upon dozens of times, but the words hit me in a completely different way tonight. The lyrics of Casting Crowns' song "The Altar and the Door," have never meant more to me than they do now.

   "I'm trying so hard to stop trying so hard. Just let you be who you are. Lord, who you are in me."

   I had always tried so hard to make myself good enough for Jesus.....how crazy is that? Nothing I could ever do could make me good or perfect or worthy of the love that my Savior offers. Yet He still loves me anyway, simply because of who He is! I had tried to force everything to happen instead of letting God be His totally awesome self and trust that He was enough. I chose to title this post "Me encanta la forma en que me amas," which translates into "I love the way you love me" in Spanish. Now don't think for one second that I can actually speak Spanish. I took French in high school and have Google translate to thank for my seemingly impressive title choice. I couldn't think of a better way to explain how I'm feeling today though than with that phrase. I love (and I mean LUUUURRVE) the way that God loves me, because it is without a doubt the easiest relationship for me to have. He loves me, He loves all of us, simply because of who He is! Does this relationship come without some difficulties? Negative. If I've learned anything though, it's that the more you draw closer to God and the more you do for Him, the more this world is going to attack you. So, in my opinion, I consider an attack from the things of this world quite a compliment =) (told you I was one of those people). Take my mission trip for example. I'm leaving for Baja, Mexico in 99, yes 99 days from now. (Side note: I can't believe it's already down to double digit days!!) While I know without a doubt that this is where I need to be at, I have received some criticism about going. My heart is in this trip 110%, and I know it'll change me for the better. God has called us to spread his Good News to all the nations, and I intend to follow through. For someone who gave His life for me, taking time out of my meager schedule is the least I can do. I would love your prayers and support during this life-changing event, and if you want to know how to help me on this journey, just let me know and I'll figure something out ;) God Bless and nighty night!